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Today I feel like a failure.  I am anxious and grumpy.  I can't focus and I keep thinking about all of the things I haven't done right over the last several months.  It feels awful.

The rational part of my brain knows that I'm being ridiculous and that nothing is all that different than it was a week ago when I felt happy and confident.  I keep trying all my tricks to snap out of a bad mood.  We've been on a walk in the sunshine.  I visited with my neighbor while our kids played at the park.  I've blasted good music and danced.  I ate chocolate.  I got dressed.  It's really just not helping.  Maybe cleaning my house this afternoon will make me feel better.  Or possibly an hour on the elliptical with Psych. Or a good night's sleep.

I have been snappy with my kids all day which makes me feel even worse.  I forgot to send a stuffed animal and a snack with Davin for his preschool's teddy bear picnic.  I have a long list of to do's and only two items crossed off.  The kids watched movies all morning.  Mom of the year over here.  Please let tomorrow be better.