Sunday, May 31, 2009

Sigh.

First of all, Grandma, this one's for you. I ordered the kids a few things on sale from Children's Place. I got these adorable shoes for Weston. They look SO cute on him. I can't get over it. I paid $4.25 for them. Totally worth it. He posed this picture all by himself too. What a ham.
This weekend Weston went to a big kid birthday party. I ended up staying instead of just dropping him off because it was about half an hour from home, but he did pretty well. It was a fun water party, so all the little boys ran around squirting each other with water guns, throwing water balloons, and jumping in and out of the pool.

I have to be honest, going to that party made me really sad about where we live. I really love my house, but there are seriously no kids in our neighborhood. I hope hope that when Weston starts preschool in the fall he will make a few good friends that live a lot closer to us. In the meantime I am willing to keep driving far away to play with the friends we do have.

I really felt the need to blog tonight even though we haven't been doing too much exciting stuff lately simply because I need to vent. I have been SO short on patience lately. My sweet Davin is such a busy baby. He is making me want to rip my hair out. One of his new favorite things is to sneak into the bathroom (on the random times that I happen to leave one of the bathroom doors open) and unroll all the toilet paper and play in the toilet. He inevitably manages to do this within hours of me putting a brand new, full roll of TP in the bathroom. I totally lost it when he did it again today. I had JUST finished using all the unrolled TP off the floor of my bathroom this morning and he got to the new roll. I reacted in a decidedly un-Sabbath day like manner. Oops. I feel bad that I lost my temper. It's just this age where they do all this naughty stuff, but don't really understand punishments. The other thing that drives me nuts is that he spits his drinks out all over himself/the floor. I give him a sippy and a few minutes later I come back and he's soaked.

I know this is just normal one year old stuff, but it is seriously getting to me. Arg. On the good news side, Weston has been doing better the last few days with not having accidents. It got to the point where he was having accidents every single day. I didn't end up taking him to Jumpin Jacks on Friday because he pooped in his pants. We had a big talk about him acting like a baby, so I would treat him like a baby. He freaked out when I tried to put him in one of Davin's diapers and was disgusted that I was going to make him eat baby food. The kicker was that he couldn't go to his friend's birthday party if he had any accidents. He had a couple close calls, but he made it and we have been accident free since. Hopefully the threat of being a baby was enough. We'll see how this week goes.

I'm sure part of my frustrations are my own fault, so my goals this week are:
1. Get to bed by 10:30pm every night this week
2. Get up and exercise every day this week
3. Make plans for playing with friends
4. Spend more time outside with the kids when we get bored and annoyed with each other
5. React calmly and adult-like to the kids' bad behavior.
6. Pray more.

10 comments:

Liz Smith said...

oh shannon, you're awesome! i love reading your blog. i can totally tell that you are a fun and wonderful mom, but at the same time you know when to be firm. it's funny because all i see are your kids' cute pictures so it is sooooo difficult for me to picture them being anything but little angels. :) but yeah, they are teeny and are going to get into trouble i guess....but you seem to be doing a wonderful job! thanks for sharing. :D

Jimbogun said...

I feel your pain, sister. I love your goals though, those are some good goals. I might have to copy those. Rachel is also getting into EVERYTHING. As soon as she hears the bathroom light turn on (the fan turns on too) she drops whatever she's doing and tries to get into the bathroom. I also had to start locking the closet right outside the bathroom. I would shut the bathroom door while doing the big girls' hair and she would just get into the closet and pull out the flannel board stuff or try for the bottle of bleach. Yikes! I always thought the lock on that closet was ridiculous, but now I'm grateful. ;)

I love you and am thinking of you often.

joyous said...

Sorry, I commented with Jim's username. :)

Hilary said...

Been there . . . I feel SO bad when I lose my patience, like the world's biggest meanie, that I somehow forgot my girls are one and three years old . . . fortunately kids seem to be AMAZINGLY forgiving! :-)

And eventually, when the time is right, you guys'll move to a more 'kid friendly' neighborhood, and Weston will love it and have the time of his life, and have tons of friends for school, and it won't have really mattered that for a few years he spent more time at home with his brother, or being driven over to friends houses!

Dad O. said...

Shan, some days,weeks,months seem to be filled with challenges, but each of those day,weeks,months also have moments of joy, happiness and peace. Try to hold to the memories and feelings of those moments and forgive yourself and your little ones for the times when we are not at our best. I love you and your family-can't wait to see you in 3 weeks.

Unknown said...

you're so honest. We all have those moments, but just don't normally admit to them so openly.

I think the goals are the best. As long as we're improving, that is all we can do, right?

and good luck with the no accidents or spit soakings. sounds like the boys are really being rascally right now.

Kat and Steve said...

Shannon, I hear ya. Motherhood is sooo challenging. I have felt short on patience myself this last week. Props to you for setting goals for yourself. Hope you have a better week.

Kate said...

I read your goals and thought "Hey those would be great goals for me!" Along with every other mom out there probably.

The Curnow Family said...

Those are some good goals! I'm sorry Davin is such a handful! But hurray for Weston and no accidents!! Love you!

Shan said...

Shan, you are an amazing mom! And I'm so excited to meet your boys. Yeah, I'm going to have ample time in SLC, which is awesome!I'm leaving DC on the 20th and driving straight through, so I'd love to meet up with you sometime that week. PS, love the Chucks. :) I still have great memories of getting mine with you and Julianna. HOpe your week goes well!